I am new to icarus. I have been a psychotic depressive for 5 years. I also had a year or more of constant headaches and migraines due to a head injury i have had since i was 17, I am 30 now. That was the catalyst for my mental illness. I found this website through a dating website. I was too unwell at the time to join and the dating thing went terribly wrong too.
it seems like life drama conspires together sometimes and while i work on being tough about it and plowing through i spend so much damn time waiting for the other shoe to drop and things to get really, really bad some more. like i don't always feel justified in letting myself be upset because it is only going to get worse and worse inevitably. so maybe i should save up my overt misery reserves or something.
Two videos from youtube, one "terrible" music but with a deep message, the other, much clearer. Talking about perceiving reality and how most of us have been separated, and trained to "beat ourselves up inside our heads".
Getting through customs with my month´s supply of Lithium was actually easier than I assumed. But my mother, who picked me up hours late after elementary school for years sent me the next two month´s pills late.
For one week I was unmedicated, but my doctor has said in the past that the half life is a week, so I couldn´t have dipped that fast. However, I am back on my pastillas as they´re called where I am at and I am having trouble.